Welcome to Ramblings of an Opinionated “Gentleman”.
You’ll note the word “Gentleman” is in quotations; this is for a reason.
Be warned, I discuss adult topics & use strong & course language.
In everyday real life, I try to be a gentleman & respectful of everyone I meet. It’s not always easy; I think in part because I have Asperger’s Syndrome (so social interactions can often be hard for me to understand & my emotions tend to get out-of-proportion), and partly because… Well, lets be honest; in general, people are selfish, idiotic assholes, myself included.
This site is meant to be, in a way, my personal therapy; I post my thoughts & feelings on various subjects here so that:
- I don’t needlessly go ripping into people in person over things better left alone in real life (as those things will solve themselves) but I’m unable to contain inside completely; in that respect, it’s like writing in a diary or going to a counselor. This is why I don’t include names; if I wanted to bitch at a person directly, I do. I write here to release anger in a more healthy way & leave people to fix things in their own way & their own time. Get over it.
- I can have reminders & records of thoughts & feelings I’ve had, good or bad, accurate or unjustified, because life is a learning process & if I do find I’m wrong I have a good way to see where I went wrong & not make that same mistake. My thoughts and opinions change constantly, and just because I vent here does not mean that these thoughts are set in stone or unchanging.
- Those open minded and intelligent enough to handle my personal thoughts, negative OR positive, & that are able to find inspiration to actually use their brains & THINK over some of the topics I write on, may do so. It’s for people who have brains and can separate a person’s feelings of the moment from actual day-to-day dealings. If you disagree with a concept or viewpoint I have, AWESOME; feel free to comment a differing opinion in an intelligent fashion. If I say something or do something that pisses you off, then if you want me to do something to fix it, tell me honestly & maturely; if you just wanna blow off steam, feel free to get your own blog & do so, they’re free. Just telling me I’m a prick (especially in comments in my blog or through random & anonymous online messages) is neither disagreeing nor an intelligent fashion of anything, it just shows you have as much brains as a rabid hedgehog after it’s had a labotamy.
I’m of the firm opinion that Asperger’s Syndrome & Autism is, at it’s core, an “Emotional Sensitivity” in the brain( I’ll be blogging about that more, be assured). That means that any emotions I feel that are “inspired” by events or circumstances (a.k.a. stimuli) are 2 to 10 times more intense than they should be, and hard for my mind to interpret clearly; this blog is a big part of how I vent those intense emotions more constructively rather than blowing up in people’s faces when I’m over-reacting (yes, I will often over-react in this blog; that’s part of the point of it. Get over it).
Does that mean a particular post is how I feel all the time? Not at all. It’s written in the heat of the moment and is my letting off steam. I’ll also tell you that some thoughts I have are similar to ones many, many people have had about others in their lives from time to time & not said it; just because I actually write it out where others can read it isn’t an invitation to start calling me a prick for voicing thoughts almost all guys & probably a lot of women have had. I’m not gonna pull punches, and I’m not gonna sugar-coat shit just because you don’t like reading the deeper thoughts people have about each other that you don’t wanna read. If you can’t accept that, tough shit; just don’t read it.
I also write here because I hope people who WANT to understand me better can get a glimps into how torrential (and exaggerated) my emotions can be, and in hopes of posing thoughts or opinions that can inspire intelectual debate & promote people actually thinking. A lot of my anger is overblown, I admit that; that’s why I let it out here, because I know my feelings are being blown out of proportion and mis-interpreted. I don’t post adendums or updates because there’s no need to when I’m putting them to work in real life. I don’t post expecting everyone to agree with me, and I expect the few that bother reading this blog to assume my thoughts & feelings are GONG to be exaggerated here. If you can’t comment here without just emotionally bashing me across the head because you don’t like that I got ridiculously mad over something insicnificant, tough shit. Just don’t read it.
Seriously, if you can’t stomach it, then just don’t read it. If I felt that things wouldn’t change for the better on their own, I wouldn’t be ranting about them here, I’d be out trying to change them; I’m ranting here as a form of therapy, and if you have a problem with what I post, then the only one with a problem is you. Trolling by replying I’m scum or evil or any other attempt to tear me down because you disagree with a post just shows your lack of maturity & lack of basic ability to reason or respect a person’s growth. Congratulations; you can bitch and troll like a 12-year-old that has no morals. Your parents must be proud.You can think I’m wrong; that’s no reason to stop thinking. You can disagree, and I’m open for debate; tearing me down or insulting me is not debate and will be deleted.
If any of my posts inspire you to think & question concepts & ideas about life, relationships, people, and the ways you’re currently viewing them, even if the answers you find are the same as when you started, then all the better; what matters to me (besides the letting off of steam, of course) is that you’ve been inspired to think, and maybe to grow as a person yourself, just as I am continuing to learn and grow.